Baptism of the Spirit

Went to the Holy Spirit retreat this weekend for Alpha. This is the second time I have attended. It is a very interesting experience for me. Apparently the Holy Spirit always manages to show up for this event. I alway see other people people crying, shaking, eyelids fluttering....and yet I feel nothing. The spirit just doesn't seem to effect me like that. I would have to say that at first this really distressed me. I have definitely felt the work of the Spirit in my life before but its only shown up in the context of me helping someone else, and never with any physical manifestation...there has never been a significant physical healing or miracles of anything like that....or the so called "baptism of the spririt" type of thing. I have noticed that he shows up in my words....and in my own thoughts. I started thinking about this over the weekend and I am OK with this. Even though I desperetly want to experience something overwhelmingly physical for mysel, I am Ok with how things are. As long as the Spirit shows up when he is really needed thats cool. Besides am I wanting the strong physical experience for God's glory....or for my own.....I am not sure. I want to experience it...but I want to experience it for the right reason......and I am willing to wait on God's timing. This has been a big step for me.