Faithless Faithfullness

Wednesday was our homegroup's night for doing homeless ministry at fruit of the vine. I have to admit I really wasn't feeling like going. In fact the last few time I have avoided going. The reason I have given is that I have a lot of work to do for school. While this wasn't exactly a lie, it was work that I could have put off or done later, especially if there was something I really wanted to do going on. While I still have compassion for the brothers and sister we serve through this ministry I have really been struggling with it. I suspect some of this was because we had been having such a large turnout for several months in a row that I always felt like I was just a tag along...not really needed. I felt like that was time that better used for something else.

Anyway I was struggling with these feelings agian this week. Erica was feeling it too. I suspect that some of this is spiritual resistance to the new church plant. My response tends to be to withdrawal. Fortunatly Erica's response was to forge ahead and do it anyway. So we went ahead and went. I am glad that I listened to Erica. I think that God broke through and did some work on me that night. I have been through circumstances similair to this before. I think that God really does reward us sometimes for just showing up. Something about being faithful even when we aren't feeling faithful. I God really uses these situations to minister to me.