Ok.....on Saturday I turn......(gasp) 35. Why does this seem really old to me. When I was in high school I planned on having it all together now. i figured by now I would have the house, car, job, wife thing all worked out....Well lets see I have a car.....I have a house......I used to have a wife......that's what...2.5 out of a possible 4.....if we're talking GPA thats a C average.
I must admit that it has been a much more interesting trip than I ever would have dreamed up for my self. I feel like I have missed out on a lot though(something I intend to correct in the next 35). I have seen some very dark days in my life. I am still very thankful for everything the Lord has seen fit to bless me with. I do have a house....I do have a car....I have food to eat ...and clothes to wear. I have a wonderful girl friend that I love very much. Life is very good, and I am content with what I have. That is probably one of he biggest things I have learned....is to be happy with what you have. thankyou God.
Ok on the subject of birthdays....my wonderful girlfriend is throwing me a birthday party this weekend. I am going to be honest I have mixed emotions about this. I have never really had a birthday party before....and I am a little uncomfortable with things being all about me.....I have fears...what if nobody comes?...what if they do come out of politeness but resent being there?....How am I supposed to act at a party about me?..... Why am I making such a big deal about this.?....I don't know. Does anyone else ever feel like this? (I know its a little wierd stressing about your first birthday party at 35) Erica if you are reading this don't get me wrong I am thrilled that you are throwing me a party....I really am.....its just that noboby has ever made a big fuss over me before.....and I am still trying to make sense of it. seriously Erica....if you are reading this....thankyou very much....I am sure it will be cool whatever happens
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