Thankfulness and Belonging

I have really been struggling with loneliness, and issues of self worth ever since my divorce. This weekend I think that a large part of that burden has been lifted. The message at church this weekend was about being thankful( I know big shock) and the fact that we do belong to someone.....To God.

Ever since my divorce I have struggled with the idea of anyone really accepting me for who I am. Add to this the fact that I would really like to be part of a family and you end up with a fairly painful combination. One of the main themes of this weekend though was that I belong to God......I belong....To God.....I belong to the creator of the universe and he accepts me.....Just as I am....This is a concept that I have known with my mind...But somehow just hasn't migrated to my heart. I believe that this weekend however that the barrier has somehow been broken. I attended two different service this weekend and heard the same message twice. Admittedly the first time I was little distracted and the ideas really didn't sink in. This morning though it hit me like a freight train, and as the words washed over me I began to weep.

I belong.....

For the first time in my life, I felt like my life mattered. I felt like no matter what happens in my personal life...God would be there for me. I have actually known this for some time...But today was different....I actually felt it....I believed it.

I do believe it.....

I belong

Thankyou Lord